Day 94 | I’m Still Vulnerable

June 11, 2017

Remember the contaminated neighbors from day 92? Well, getting away from them has made a big difference! Yay!

I’ve also been taking a roundabout way to get to the bathroom to avoid passing by their campsite. Just to be extra careful.

Unfortunately, I forgot to do that this morning and when I walked past their campsite… I felt it! It’s crazy that such a transient exposure could affect me so much! I decontaminated as soon as I got back to our spot and felt better immediately. Wow! I don’t know why I’m still amazed. I guess because it’s such a weird “treatment.”

The episode did scare me a little though because it reminded me of just how vulnerable I still am. I’m functional and can feel almost normal as long as I’m inside a protective bubble of clean air. Yet as soon as something bursts through that bubble I start going downhill pretty fast.

So many different variables can ruin a place for me: the wind can blow something in, a neighbor can set up a contaminated tent, someone can start a campfire with moldy wood. Any number of things can drive us away from our spot without a moments notice! It’s a good thing being sick has taught me to live with unpredictability. Still, I long for normalcy!

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  • Natalie Julson

    Praying for you Ana, I’m glad that you’re able to tell the difference just by moving to a different spot. I hope that “normalcy” will come to you soon

    June 14, 2017 at 11:39 am Reply
    • Ana Harris

      Thank you so much! 💕

      June 14, 2017 at 6:13 pm Reply
  • Mary Taylor

    I’ m praying that normalcy comes soon as your body continues to heal. What’s a bit unnerving is that the rest of us are continually exposed to ‘unclean’ air & mold all the time & don’t even know it! Praying for continual healing & that all will go really well with your parent’s visit!

    June 14, 2017 at 12:27 pm Reply
    • Ana Harris

      Thank you for the prayers Mary! Yes, it is a bit unnerving and I do worry about the people I love who are living in cities with bad air. Thankfully, not everyone is quite as vulnerable to these toxins it seems. Some people seem to tolerate higher exposures. But still, it can’t be good for anyone.

      June 14, 2017 at 6:12 pm Reply
  • Erin

    Aw…I’m so sorry for you! I hope you all can find a spot to stay for a LONG time and no neighbors come and contaminate the area. And maybe people will have less and less campfires as summer gets closer and the weather gets hot. 🙂

    June 14, 2017 at 2:16 pm Reply
  • Erik Johnson

    Reminds me of back in 2001 when I walked past a campsite and got the blast of badness.
    The guy yelled hello, so I circled around to approach from upwind.
    Turned out he was a Veteran, and was out there for the same reason.

    Escaping his toxic house.

    June 14, 2017 at 7:51 pm Reply
    • Ana Harris

      Wow! Scary story Erik! Thanks for commenting by the way! I always feel like I’m meeting a celebrity when I see you comment on my posts. You’ve made such an incredible discovery and I might not be here if it wasn’t for you. So, thank you! 🙂

      June 14, 2017 at 9:53 pm Reply

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