We decided to go into town yesterday to buy new clothes to replace the three outfits we each have currently. The hope is that it might help to reduce the total load. Not to be graphic but I’ve drenched my clothes with sweat repeatedly this hot summer. So, it seems at least possible that the toxins from my own body have slowly contaminated all my clothes. I’m not certain that this is what’s going on but last time I had a big setback, replacing our clothing helped significantly.
Unfortunately, I didn’t do well in town yesterday even though I stayed in the van the whole time. My brain just about shut off and I was not able to think or focus. I tried to write but I just couldn’t. I also had a significant increase in pain and fatigue. I’ve never had these issues in Rapid City, which makes me wonder if my reactivity is going up for some reason. Maybe something problematic is blowing through the whole area? The wildfire smoke? I don’t know. I sort of feel like the burning paint cans might have flipped a switch that made my body go into hypersensitive mode again. Who knows.
Thankfully, all of these “reactions” are relatively mild compared to what I was having several months ago. It’s really frustrating to take a step backwards so it’s always helpful to remember how far I’ve come. My reactions don’t involve life-threatening allergy symptoms anymore. I’m limited in what I can do but I’m not miserable. Today I’m tired, achy and my brain is painfully slow, but my body isn’t trying to kill me. I can sit in my chair and be pretty comfortable. That’s something to be thankful for. Setbacks are still setbacks but they seem to be getting less dramatic each time.
It’s always good for me to call up the past when I need some perspective on the present. And that’s the most profound thing I can come up with for today. My brain is so done with this blog post. Sorry friends! I hope Mrs. Brain will be back in the game soon.
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